How's life? Busy? Crazy? Meh? We all go up and down like that old crikety roller coaster I used to ride at 6 Flags in Denver, Co.
FIRST- I want to announce that we (the band and I) are playing at The Saxon Pub In Austin, Tx on Tuesday, May 6 at 8pm!! Please come, it's an early show and I am super excited!
I am sitting in my living room where this photo was taken (just now) and I am listening to Ryan Adams - Heartbreaker album. I love this album and there are, like, 5 songs about different girls and on the cover he has a cigarette hangin on his lips.. So mysterious & heartbreaker-ish.
I am really excited that I just got my guitar set up by a man in S Austin, TX named Tom Oatley. He's a guitar doctor and fixed up my sweet, dark angel song accompanist. I don't have a name for her. If you have an idea, pitch it in the comments below!
This Wednesday I will be leaving town for the Larry Joe Taylor Music Festival (largest Texas music Fest) where I will play on Thursday morning for the Bloody Mary morning show! You also may see me singing with LJT on Saturday night with thousands of people in the audience! Eeek. Something I have wanted to do since I was a little little girl.
I was introduced to this festival last year and got to stay back stage and meet lots of really cool folks. I got to sing with Larry Joe and it was crazy.. There was a (really drunk) girl in the front row reaching up for me like I was famous or something. She wanted to touch my hand so bad and she was drenched in beer. I threw her some beads I found on the floor of the stage and she seemed very grateful. At least I know I had one adoring fan for about 10 minutes, who may not have any clue what my name is- but, hey! That's besides the point ;)
I am also in early stages of pre production for an album - been a long time coming! I have chosen a producer to work with and I will tell you who soon! He's really great and I am very excited to work with this person.
Although I have a good amount of money to start off the album, I want to publicly announce that I will be launching a KICKSTARTER campaign in the next couple of months so that all of my friends, family and fans can be a part of the experience in helping us create and promote this album!
Be well and live in compassion with your passion!
This is a phrase I think, talk and read about often. I want to share with you and my wish is to inspire you to be YOU!
Being authentic. What does it mean?
Well, to me, living in authenticity means to live in truth. Webster dictionary defines the word as being real or genuine; not copied or false; true and accurate; made to be or look just like an original.
I believe that if we could all be our true, authentic selves our lives would become a lot more fluid and easy to live. This can be difficult. There are times we are scared to say what's on our mind, ashamed to speak our truth or intimated by circumstances that come our way. I know, I've been there as we all have. Being authentic comes with risks and even greater rewards. It brings a freedom to us that we can experience in no other way than - being authentic.
Think about when you are having a conversation with someone and they don't seem available- no eye contact, on their phone or interrupting. How do you feel when that conversation is over? I'm talking whether it's a relationship through business, personal, family, romantic, etc.. Now think about those times you have had conversations with people who are so interested in what you are talking about, looking into your eyes and have compassion about what you are sharing. How does that make you feel? Good, right?! I hope so! Now put yourself on the other side for some inner reflection.
Being authentic does not necessarily mean that you are going around telling everyone who you are and what you stand for and how you view the world. Authenticism can be adaptable- Being present in the moment. Recognizing our emotions when they arise and handling them in most peaceful way we know how. Being honest with people. Setting boundaries to care for ourselves. Being compassionate towards others. Helping our brothers and sisters when they cry for help.
In each and every one of us lies our true, authentic self. Over years it can be covered up by fear, anxiety, resentments, anger, heartache.. There's a way out of this! By practicing presence, compassion and honesty everyday- the layers will start to peel away to uncover the true, authentic essence we all hold within. As our inner worlds open up, our outer worlds with follow and we will know more peace, happiness and prosperity than we could have ever imagined. I promise this works.
Here are some things you may not know about me. I am a folk/rock/country singer songwriter in Austin, TX. When I was 17, living in Denver, CO, I paid with my own money to have two 10 inch subs installed in the trunk of my car. Pretty much all I listened to was rap and hip hop (and Mariah Carey). Until I started writing songs, I had no idea who Kris Kristofferson or Townes Van Zandt were. Authentic. I dropped out of H.S. to get my GED and start cosmetology school. Authentic. I have a few forms of OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). Authentic. I quit drinking over a year ago am an active member of Alcoholics Anonymous in recovery. It's beautiful and authentic. I take way too many photos of my cat. Authentic.
"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." -Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
I challenge you today, to be YOU. You have a special gift to offer this world. Use it as honestly and openly as you can! Know that you are loved as yourself and you do not need to be anything but YOU!
PS. This is a photo I took of SRV in front of Austin, TX skyline.
This year I am going to make it my goal to give a blog once a week!
This Saturday we will have our first show of the year at Strange Brew! I am super excited to play this venue. It has already won awards for best listening room in Austin, TX. This will be a full band show! We play from 6-7:30, so come out to the show, go out and enjoy dinner after and then if you're feelin' spicy, you can go to dirty 6th to get crazy and fraternize with all the folks booty dancin' on a see-through dance floor with sharks below - but really - if you go to that place, (yes, it does exist) please tell the owner that Ashley Monical does not approve of the cruel and unusual treatment of those beautiful creatures. Okay, back on track! This will be a really fun show at Strange Brew! If you have not yet been there, come see how awesome it is.. If you have been there, well.. You know you want to go back!
I would also like to give a shout out to all of you who support what is so dear to my heart.. Music can fill our souls and is such a gift whether we are listening or creating. Music brings people from all cultures together and can heal the world.. It already is.. A very generous man gifted me a guitar about a month ago, his name is Chuck Floro. The guitar is beautiful and I instantly felt a connection with it. Thank you, Chuck from South Dakota!!!
I am really looking forward to this year on the journey we call life. It's gonna be a good one for all of us! Let us be happy, joyous and free!
See y'all at STRANGE BREW on SATURDAY JAN 11 @6PM!!!
Hey beautiful folks!
I realized I haven't given an update in a good while, so I wanted to fill you in!
Since May I have been performing at The Saxon Pub with a full band backing me. It has been a really great experience & I have learned a lot about collaboration, leading a band and arranging songs. The Saxon Pub is a wonderful, legendary music venue in Austin that I am happy to say I have played. Along with playing band shows, I have been playing solo shows and refining my guitar playing and vocals. What I have really been focusing on is performing the songs and on what the message is in each one. I have been writing a lot on guitar and piano and it's opening up my mind, creation is endless in the world of art. I also have recently picked up playing the bass and I produced a song for my friend, John Scholten, in the studio. I felt so comfortable and good in that role and am excited to explore that creativity more in the future! The music business needs more chick producers, don't ya think???
The BIG news is that I have finally started to record an album. It has been a long time coming and I am thrilled this process has started! I am working with a great producer, Roy Taylor. Dony Wynn on drums, Craig Ross on guitar & bass and Brian Beattie on bass and piano. We started recording at Brian's studio called The Wonder Chamber, a great studio off of S. Congress in Austin aka SOCO. It has a really incredible, open vibe for creation and focus. It was an amazing experience to record with these guys and I look forward to creating with them in the future. It felt like magic.
I promise to keep you all updated about the album release when it gets closer to that time! Now, I am enjoying writing with others, learning new instruments and being immersed in the Austin music scene & beyond.
My wings will grow
My heart will sow
W TX, aka Mario Land was a great time! I love Alpine and all the folks there. I want to give a shout out to Stewart Ramser for having us be a part of Viva Big Bend Music Festival. Also a shout out to May Leal and Dana Kasling for being good friends and such great supporters of my music :) Had fun w/ you ladies! I got to see so many awesome people and I met even more awesome people.
Please stay tuned for my upcoming shows around Austin and news on recording.
I haven't forgotten to blog, I've remembered but haven't followed through because usually when I think of something worthy enough to share I'm driving or playing or around people who will say "get off your phone!"
I'm in Oklahoma now and loving it as I always do. The folks here are true music fans and they like to party hard. Last night I went to see my friends, Uncle Lucius play at The Wormy Dog in Oklahoma City. After the show I saw a girl projectile vomit walking out of the venue and then people were walking in it not realizing they were getting her dinner & vodka on their cute little stilettos. I had never seen someone puke like that. I'm happy I'm not one who that has a domino effect on. And I'm happy I wear boots and look down very few seconds while I'm walking. I'm happy I don't throw up in public too. That can't be fun, but I guiltily (sp?) got a kick out of it. But then we got to go hang out in this airstream bus out back of the venue. It had a really clever name and I can't remember it! While everyone passed bottles of whiskey around I ate ice out of an ice bucket and tried a guys watermelon/peppermint flavored ecig. Very exciting.
I like Oklahoma, but one thing they don't have that TX has is continual feeder roads to the hwys. They cut off every so often so you have to turn around to go to the other side to find a way to get back to the original side up a mile and then your still on the wrong side and can't see the Cracker Barrel sign anymore.. It's not very practical. And maybe they.. Yeah, maybe they could do something about that for me. Also, on this trip it has become a theme to get a maple donut at every gas station.. They have them at EVERY gas station in OK. I'm gonna be 28 soon and I love them still after all these years. I don't know where I got my sweet tooth from. Mama? Dad?
So, Oklahoma- please fix your feeder rds, keep up with the maple donuts, keep loving us Texans who come to play music for you and please keep drinking your Mustang beer and throwing up while waking. It's quite impressive, a skill I admire from a distance. Oklahomans are endearing, I sure have a soft spot for y'all.
Love you OK! Come to The Deli (in Norman) Monday eve July 22 to see me render my heart on stage before The Damn Quails!
I'll be at Cheatham St Warehouse on Thursday evening (9pm) & at The Saxon Pub on Saturday (6:30)! Come on out and hear the band!
Hey! I'm playing at The Saxon Pub Friday evening, late show at 12:30am after Jeff Plankenhorn! It's gonna be a fun time and I will have some great players backing me up! I'll be there, will you?
Lately this question has been coming up in and around me. Why do I want to play music? What do I want to do with my ability? When I start to answer, I know what the feeling is, but I can’t seem to put it in to words. I will do my best to do this now.
For those of you who know me well, you know that I have a strong faith in God, the Universe, a power and a light in every thing. It lives in all of us and is easily covered up by ego, fear, resentment, etc.. When we are hurt or disillusioned it is our ego that tells us “this is not fair,” “I am a victim.” I have been faulty of this as every human has. Because we are human, we have the ego. With faith, each day, each moment I strive to listen not to what my ego has to say, but what my truth is.. It can be extremely difficult! I have read a lot of books on spirituality and guidance on inner truth that have showered me with the knowledge I have in my brain on this subject. What I have taken from almost every piece of literature I have read is that truth is inside each of us, always. It is there regardless of whether we wish to hear it or not. Layers of fear (whatever they may be for each individual) grow over the truth masking it, fogging it and suffocating it. Somehow we grow to find comfort in this. We grow to find comfort in being a victim. We learn how to feel good in this state for whatever reason.. Maybe attention or excuses to be destructive to our selves or others or excuses to not be the best we can be and so on. This can turn into a vicious cycle.. Or not.
We can choose to be happy. We can CHOOSE to LOVE ourselves.
I am not preaching something I have not struggled with. I am not throwing a pity party, I am simply saying that if we are human we have issues. Everyone does. The more we can access the love for ourselves, the more we give our pure, honest, good love to others. And also accept love from others. It’s a beautiful thing. So let’s work on loving one another and ourselves with whatever we do in our daily lives. Move forward gracefully (or not, it’s okay to be clumsy) with intention. I believe if we instill this in our daily practice, we will uncover our truth and feel a divine sense of freedom.
As I sit here and write, it’s helping me on my own path. I have no idea how many people will read this. I’m sure my mom and a few of my friends. I am not writing this to get recognition though. I am writing this for myself. It feels so liberating to put my truth out into the world for anyone who will listen.
This is why I play music. Music is so dear to me and so true in my heart. Music holds me when I need to be consoled, music lifts me when I’m creeping away from truth, it grounds me when I’m feeling heady, it loves me when I can’t seem to find a reason to love myself, speaks to me when I’ve closed my ears to the divine. In return, I respect the music and lyrics that choose my Being to move through. I feel so honored and blessed by this.
Through music I vow to..
love all in this Universe. The divine light in me recognizes the divine light in you.
This weekend, for the first time, I got to pee (in a toilet) riding down the hwy at 75 mph. Also, for the first time, I got to play to a sold out crowd of over 150 people all silent, hanging on every note that fell off of my lips. They were not there for me, but I was there for them, open and honest as I could be. Larry Joe Taylor brought me down to Port Aransas to play the Third Coast Theater with him. I opened his show with a short set of originals and then got up with his band to sing a couple of duets with him. I had such a great time even with the nerves running through me like a river flows to the ocean. I am looking forward to the next time! Thanks Larry Joe, Mark, Joe, Herb, Casey and to my sis, Jack, who is so much fun to be on the rd with!
This Friday, Colin Colby (on lead guitar & vox) will be at Chisolm Trail Ballroom in Lockhart, TX! Show starts at 8pm & it's $10 at the door. I am really excited to play at this new venue in Lockhart. I've heard some great things about it, so if you're around c'mon out for a time!
peace & luuuv,
Hello friends! I wanted to give you an update on what's goin' on in my world- I have taken most of February off to write, start learning the piano and work on my meditation that keeps me rooted.. It's been great! I am feeling nice & good & healthy. I'm excited to start playing shows again soon and wanted to let you know where I'll be in the coming months.
A few things I think you need to know:
I'm gonna make an album soon & it's gonna have a roots, organic, earthy feel & tone. Simplicity is what I have in mind.
I'm starting to write on the piano & will start playing it at shows here real soon.
I cut & hi-lighted my own hair, it was a science experiment, but I think it worked out.
Today, my cat is crazy & loving the outdoors & I'm doing my best to keep him from getting swooped by a hawk flying overhead.
It's a good day, the sun shines & the birds chirp to remind we that we are all one.
Thanks for reading- schedule below!
Wingman Ranch House Concert
Please get in touch for directions and/or tix
w/ Colin Colby on lead guitar
Larry Joe Taylor Songwriter's Contest
Grande Stafford Theater
w/ Colin Colby on lead guitar
w/ Larry Joe Taylor Band
Third Coast Theater
Port Aransas, TX
w/ Larry Joe Taylor Band
Chisolm Trail Ballroom
w/ Colin Colby on lead guitar
w/ Colin Colby on lead guitar
VIVA BIG BEND FOOD FESTIVAL
w/ Colin Colby on lead guitar
VIVA BIG BEND FOOD FESTIVAL
w/ Colin Colby on guitar
w/ Colin Colby on lead guitar
w/ Colin Colby on lead guitar
Thanks to FFR & family for having me out to play with you at Dosey Doe!
What a stage.. They announced me while I was standing on stage behind the beautiful red velvet curtain.. then the curtains open and there I am and there the people are! So very cool.
The guys asked me to join them on a song with my washboard then we all went back to their place in the country and hung out and listened to records with their dogs.. Good times.
Excited to play with these guys again in Steamboat, CO on Jan 4th @ Ghost Ranch!
I wasn't gonna vote because I didn't know who to vote for or if I was even registered.. AND if I was registered, where I should go to vote. After talking with a few friends and family, I realized that I could go anywhere to vote in my county and that I was probably registered because I had a drivers license. I FEEL SO INVIGORATED that I actually went and exercised my right as a citizen!
Someone once told me that if a person has perfectly symmetrical features on their face, they are the definition of beauty. Well, folks, we see here that is not always the case.. Purdy, huh?!? There's beauty in imperfection.. Yet, everything is perfect the way it is.. This concept is something I am really working on honoring right now. We have no control over what happens around us, but we do have control of our emotion reactions. On a deeper level, we create the images that we see in everyday life. I won't get too into that though, not yet.
Here's a story!!! ...
I was driving with a friend out to W. TX yesterday for some shows in Terlingua (abt 10 miles from the Mexico border and absolutely gorgeous). What was supposed to be an 8 hr drive turned into about a 12 hr drive.. A turn was missed in Alpine.. blah blah. We went about 100 miles on the wrong road when I realized.. "We should have been there by now and all I keep seeing are these signs that say 'historical maker 1 mile.' I think we're going the wrong way, yeah.. we're definitely going the wrong way." So, we turn around (it's a little after 10pm at this point) and head back the way we came. After a few miles (speed limit 70mph), we are hauling ass toward a pack of wild boars in the middle of the road, just hangin' out on a nice Monday evening in the Texas desert. We did not have time to slow down and there was just enough room for the vehicle to squeeze through the middle of the boar family without even running over a toe. Whew! We couldn't do anything but laugh at this point.. So we're driving along laughing and thanking God we didn't hit a wild boar in the middle of the desert. A few miles down the road.. in a quick few second (still laughing) a precious fox runs out in front of the car and goes under. You know when little kids around 3 or 4 yrs can't yet tell the difference between laughing and crying? They make that face that's in between.. like a laugh-cry.. It's confusing and awkward, but beautiful at the same time. That was us in the car. Do we cry, do we keep laughing.. What the hell just happened? We had to pull over and say a prayer for that little fox. It was as if the sweet sacrificed his soul for our lives. We kept driving and almost ran over a skunk, got sprayed and then a fleet of bats flew up in the front of our windshield. About 3 hrs later we made it to our hotel and got to sleep.
Magical. Frightening. Mysterious. Life. Love. Darkness. Nature. Desert. Mountains. Cry-laughing. Sacredness.
It's been a great ride so far. Steamboat Springs was awesome.. Good people, dancing, riding and the same tastin' whiskey they have in TX..
Now I'm in Denver at my friend's house.. Tessa & Per (Swedish I think?). They're awesome.. They put me in the basement.. I'm in the basement right now with a naked woman painting on a wall. Comforting. Thanks Tessa & Per!
Tomorrow (which is today now that you're reading this) I'm going to visit Red Rocks and sing on the stage.. Manifest destiny! (with Tarah and baby Axel) ... Then I have a show in Dillon at a place called Adriano's, 7PM, with Chris Carter on guitar. Yeah! He rocks.
I'll try to post every few days.. I didn't get pepper spray, a taser or a gun (DAD!) like some of you suggested.. But I think I'm in good hands.. If i'm attacked I can use my head butting or knee lifting skills.
Luuuv & light and all that stuff!
I leave for tour next Thursday up to CO! Driving by myself.. But meeting and staying with good people along the way!
Since I got back from my trip to CO & NM a couple of weeks ago, I have been a little bit of a hermit..
Alongside spending time with friends and family, staying at home & writing a bunch.
When I got home I decided that I need to start a band and re-vamp my shows.
Being on the road was truly inspiring from the people I met, to the places I played and the musicians I played and shared shows with... If you have not checked out Uncle Lucius, you gotta see these boys!
Right now, while at home in Austin, I am starting a band.. which I am very excited about. I have enough songs to put a new album out, but I want to make sure to choose the songs and team I want to record with very carefully and not record it until I am fully ready.. Hopefully beginning of 2013.
I figured out that I absolutely love to travel and play music. I think that comes from growing up traveling all around the world.
Thanks to everyone who has supported and still does. I am humbly grateful for your luuuuvvvv... :)
This photo is from me in Frisco, CO this summer.. the statue reminds me of our Buddy dog who passed a couple years back.. I wanted to share!
Love & light to my people,
This is my new friend, she's a pyrenees..
I did not get her name, but she is so super sweet!
Steamboat is awesome!
I love traveling & playing music & making friends.
Playing one more show tonight at Saddles in the Sheraton at the base of the mountain.
Tomorrow we head to Dillon to play.
My friend, Chris Carter, who is from Denver & playing guitar with me, is AWESOME!
On the road to Santa Fe, had a great show last at Lolas in Ft. Worth! Thanks to my friends, Natasha & Kindy for making a special trip to see me :)
Excited to play at The Cowgirl in Santa Fe tomorrow and a wonderful French woman is putting us up in her casita for tonight.
Better put my boots on for The Cowgirl.. Wait, I left 'em in Texas. Hmm, maybe there's a song in there somewhere!
If you have friends in Santa Fe, let them know I'll be at The Cowgirl, this Friday, from 5-7:30pm!
Love & light!