For a few years now, I’ve had a pretty dedicated journaling practice and it’s probably something I will do for the rest of my life. Writing, in every form, has helped me through a lot of pain, fear, anger, sadness, anxiety. As the words hit the page, the energy they carry seems to alchemize. I have filled many journals and burned most of them in ceremony to let go. Writing is one of the most beautiful practices I have found.
About 6 months ago, with influence from my mom (who’s a therapist), I began journaling (nearly) every day about what I am grateful for. At first it felt light and mushy and frilly, and although I’ve practiced “gratitude” my whole life in a sort of unintentional, more passive way, the word honestly made me cringe a little. The ego really wants us to stay in drama and victimhood because it thinks we are safe there. A lot of my life, I have felt like I’ve had a pretty good grasp on reality and what was happening around me… Through all experienced emotions. And for some reason I had this idea that gratitude would take me out of that “reality.” It did, but not in the way I expected.
Perspective is everything.
I believe that when I began this gratitude practice, I was ready. I’ve spent a lot of time getting to know my shadow and it’s intricate ways. I’ve learned to love and honor that part of myself too. I was ready to shed the fear, crack my cocoon and embrace the opening.
Intentionally practicing gratitude has changed my life. Truly. It came in like a feather floating in the breeze and landed right on my lap. I won’t list all of the “things” that have happened, but I will say that there’s an emerging of my truest self being unveiled. The self that loves without condition, is more accepting, is in awe, is courageous and powerful, is compassionate from the inside-out, is willing to move into discomfort even if it might shake things up. I’m not saying I’ve got these things down, like a notch on my belt, but that I’m more able to show up, alive and present and breathing with intention to live and love at my full capacity. What used to be daily anxiety, is now a fleeting moment of fear that I know is not my own.
Maybe you’ve heard about gratitude recently and you have the same reaction that I did. I’m here to encourage you to give it a go. If writing isn’t your thing, you can spend a few minutes looking into the mirror every morning or lying in bed before your day begins and guide your thoughts to gratitude. Maybe you begin with… “I’m grateful to be alive and breathing, for Mother Earth who provides abundance, for the joy I will experience today, for clean water, for having a car, a phone, a bed, for the money in my wallet/bank account, for my family, for the friendships. For the love I give and receive.”
Once you start to focus on these gifts and blessings, you’ll start to see more flood in. I’m not a quantum physicist, so I don’t know how to gracefully articulate it, but the law of the Universe works in this way. I’ve seen it first-hand and it’s incredible.
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You are blessed and you are a blessing.